Risking My Life For Your Entertainment

[Lenore Lovelace]

Since people are failing to notice, allow me to explain this in the simplest terms possible. My performances are quite important, as they are a continued preservation of Circus Arts. In case you didn't know, the Hostile City is birthplace to the American Circus, and so I have an enormous sense of pride in being able to uphold this tradition.

I DO NOT MAKE MONEY FOR WHAT I DO

Yes, I have been paid in the past for my talents, and I won't argue with that b/c we all need to pay rent or bills and provide those important life essentials, like food.

Since it seems that I have been 'outcast' from the dominating scene, I have been forced to start from square one, despite the fact I have about 9 years of performing experience, with plenty of credits and references to back this up. I'm not just another person who needed to do something more exciting in their life, wanted to make a quick buck or needed to 'famous'.

You want to know what makes someone RISK THEIR LIFE for entertainment? It's the looks on your faces, the reactions you give - positive or negative; some reaction is better than none. It's worth doing it, every time, for the simple joy of hearing that applause and having people say thank-you.

It's knowing that I am actually doing something to preserve Circus Arts instead of just talking about it and still taking money.

Don't get it twisted; I'd readily accept a paid gig any time. However, if that is one of your main motivating factors, you are a poser. You are profiting off the gimmick b/c it's what brings in the people and puts cash in your pocket, and that makes me sick.

Here I am, one last time, letting you all know that I am doing this BECAUSE IT'S MY LIFE AND I DON'T GIVE A S*** ABOUT THE MONEY.

Never have, never will, and I don't care if I'm "giving it away for free". Would rather perform as much as possible, for anyone who can pay attention for two f****** minutes than not. It's all I know how to do, and I'm not going to let posers get in the way of that.

Taking a hiatus to work on my skills and will be back in full force next month, so keep those eyes peeled for updates. Will try to give more advanced notice, as I've had several people wanting to come see me who found out too late.

Also, if you are reading this, would appreciate if you let me know so I don't constantly feel like a population of one.

~ LABL, Carny Trash Aristocrat