What The...?

[Syd Valentine]

Funny how one can feel so alone even when surrounded by others twenty four hours a day. Over the years life can become monotonous and strangely dull without you even realizing it. You trek on and on, day after day... the same old routine. You think to yourself, "it's not that bad. I'm getting along just fine."

Then, one day, something happens. Something impacts your life in such a way that suddenly you realize you have been compromised. You start to remember things you used to like, things you used to enjoy doing. You begin to see how repetitive your world has become and how you lost track of the reasons you once had for doing the things you do. You start to remember what it feels like to want to be you even though, sadly, you don't even know who YOU are anymore. You are hearing things you USED to long to hear; seeing things you USED to anticipate seeing. Again, you feel the excitement of truly being happy.

BAM! It becomes clear all at once. That's just it, isn't it? You ARE "getting along". You are not living but just "getting along". Is that really fine? Is that OK? Confusion settles in; unnerving yet sweet confusion. This could be bad in so many ways..... it could be good in SO many more. You want to laugh because you feel invigorated; you want to cry because you are afraid. Afraid of what? Failure? Starting new? Losing? Losing WHAT?

You feel a little dizzy, crazy even.... and you think to yourself...

What the f***?!

[Betty Red {PL Team / Madam}]

I hate that I am not there right now! Hang tough sweetie, you'll see the path unfold in front of you, and though it may be tough to take that first step (which ever step that may be) you'll do it...and each step will get easier and easier. And remember, you'll always have me here to catch you if ever you should fall