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An odd post....bare with me here.
Today was an odd one...
The day before I had spent 6 hours on a Practical and Written exam. It was a sure failure for me. I came home and drank... and drank some more. (I love Malibu and Pepsi, it's a smart drink for any occasion. In fact, I have one now. )I put myself to bed with the knowledge that my career choice may not be in my future.
The statement that someone drags themselves out of bed and on to work; is not unknown to me. However today it felt like I was going to school, to face a firing squad. My goals and dream would be shot down and my brave confident mask would shatter.
I hadn't failed. In fact I got very high marks. So why was I so devastated, sad...and overwhelmingly tired.
Coming home from school one of my favorite designers passed away, I sat in the car and cried.
It's 7:30 and I have just finished watch 1935's "Roberta" featuring Fred Astaire and Ginger Rodgers. By the time they get to "Smoke gets in your eyes" I am happy again....Next TMC's Premiere of 1938's "Alexander's Ragtime Band" ..( I love love Alice Faye ) I am excited, singing along, and even dancing with my dog.
There is something very special about movies made in the 1930's. Between World War I ,World War II, and devastated by the Great Depression. One decade in Hollywood that created the best dance-musicals. The Dance/Music/Comedy Formula.
The countries hopes and dreams could all be found at the "Pictures". A reflection of something positive, a reminder to not forget about your dreams. Success could be a step away.
Today, I mourned myself as if I had died. Doubting my abilities so much, that I didn't believe I had done well, even after seeing concrete proof of the very opposite.
No one wants to call themselves out as being false, but today I am. I really thought I was confident in my abilities as a Hairstylist. I thought I would never let anyone ever get in the way of my dream. I didn't think in a million years, I would get in the way.
I guess I need to work on that. I don't know how to end this post, in fact it might seem unorganized and tediously wordy...
Like said it's an odd post, but it's a truth.
The day before I had spent 6 hours on a Practical and Written exam. It was a sure failure for me. I came home and drank... and drank some more. (I love Malibu and Pepsi, it's a smart drink for any occasion. In fact, I have one now. )I put myself to bed with the knowledge that my career choice may not be in my future.
The statement that someone drags themselves out of bed and on to work; is not unknown to me. However today it felt like I was going to school, to face a firing squad. My goals and dream would be shot down and my brave confident mask would shatter.
I hadn't failed. In fact I got very high marks. So why was I so devastated, sad...and overwhelmingly tired.
Coming home from school one of my favorite designers passed away, I sat in the car and cried.
It's 7:30 and I have just finished watch 1935's "Roberta" featuring Fred Astaire and Ginger Rodgers. By the time they get to "Smoke gets in your eyes" I am happy again....Next TMC's Premiere of 1938's "Alexander's Ragtime Band" ..( I love love Alice Faye ) I am excited, singing along, and even dancing with my dog.
There is something very special about movies made in the 1930's. Between World War I ,World War II, and devastated by the Great Depression. One decade in Hollywood that created the best dance-musicals. The Dance/Music/Comedy Formula.
The countries hopes and dreams could all be found at the "Pictures". A reflection of something positive, a reminder to not forget about your dreams. Success could be a step away.
Today, I mourned myself as if I had died. Doubting my abilities so much, that I didn't believe I had done well, even after seeing concrete proof of the very opposite.
No one wants to call themselves out as being false, but today I am. I really thought I was confident in my abilities as a Hairstylist. I thought I would never let anyone ever get in the way of my dream. I didn't think in a million years, I would get in the way.
I guess I need to work on that. I don't know how to end this post, in fact it might seem unorganized and tediously wordy...
Like said it's an odd post, but it's a truth.
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