AAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!

[Syd Valentine]

Today I am:

going crazy
a complete 'hater'
frustrated
pissed-the-f***-off
ready to box (someone's face)
whatever
irritable
anxious
agitated
confused
not at all OK
messed up in the head
retarded
ready to crawl into a h***
screaming inside
at my wits end
craving a cig
saying to myself "WTF ?! Really? REALLLYYYY?????
sucking at life
depressed
whiny (obviously...)


Today, I feel like...

running away and never coming back
getting in a drunken fist fight with a complete stranger
I just ate a s*** sandwich
Nothing really matters and never really has, for that matter
throwing in the towel
getting trashed and passing out
calling it quits.... in regards to EVERYTHING
eating a bunch of fried chicken, ice cream and candy
going out and spending a bunch of money that I don't have
I got hit by a freight train
OD'ing on happy pills
joining the circus

But

Instead

Today, I will..........

pretend like everything is just peachy
cry into my pillow
take a nap
clean
kiss my kids and tell them how much I love them
stay away from the bottle and smokes
daydream
write a story
call my parents
fantasize
run
sit outside in the rain and drink hot tea
reassure myself that I am something special
forgive, forgive, forgive
trust in the universe
visit a lake
take some vitamins
listen to celtic music
do some yard work
keep my chin up