Mediocre

[Mette Th13teen]

I really think its an ugly word; mediocre. And it doesnt even describe how I felt the past week or so.. I felt worse! I felt like a failure, I felt really bad and was actually scared that I was getting a depression. Had one a couple of years ago, its not fun at all.. So now you know why Im not as much online as usual :-( Hubby is getting tattooed today so Im home alone all day with the zoo <3 I watched a movie, some Simpsons, ate roasted chicken and french fries; lived life a little!

We finally got the boy pup for Zombie, he really is for me but hopefully things work out fine with all the aspects of breeding and I will be able to have puppies with the two of them some day. His name is Monster and he is kind flesh colored with red hair at the moment but he will grow to be more of a syrup colored body with white hair. He will also be twice her size, he is only 2 months and she is 11 months but there are only 300g. weight difference already! He can be quite annoying.. Like right now where he is fighting my foot and eating my toes for no apparent reason... And peeing in the bed and every where else really inconvenient!

I quit Latexa so I wont be going back there anymore.. I opened up http://morguelatex.com/, still making and adding products but so far, not one single sale. That is a big part of the failure feeling mentioned earlier :-( That and I totally freaked out and paniced last week doing a new design - I just sat there, crying, scared... So I just put it all down and now Im changing some things and I hired a friend to help out and hopefully, Ill make my 1st sale soon! I have so much latex in so many colors now, so I will be making more designs for sure, I just need to get my self-confidence back. I do like my products, I shot a new dress, gauntlets and purse a couple of days ago:

I have the entire month off, I "only" have to take care of all my projects so Im starting working out again.. Im going crazy at home! Not that there is not enough to do with Payback Baby!, Mette13.net and La Morgue Latex - I just need to see some friendly faces and talk to some one besides the cats and dogs once in a while.. Ill try to get some shoots done too, regular ones - not the usual porn sets and paid jobs.. Some for fun! That is going to be interesting when no self-confidence but I need to get back up on horse! Speaking off Mette13.net, I have made a bit of a competition on Facebook; if you add my page there, invite your friends to add too, comment on my profile how many invited friends, you can win a month of membership to my solo site...

This blog is boring, Ill just stop...