confused little girl.

[Delyssia LaBelle {Madam}]

At 24 years of age I still feel like a little girl. Scared of making any decisions because the one I make might be the wrong one. I have dreams, lofty dream, I want to do pinup hairstyling and makeup, i love the look on peoples faces when they see what ive done to their hair and face, how glamorous they feel, the confidence boost is visable and I cherish that. I want to learn digital computer and handmade crafts, to be an artist in my own creative way. But oh no, says the nay sayer in me. thats not safe. what is safe is going back to school and becoming a nurse like my mom wants me to be, i would make a hot nurse, haaaa. but thats not what i see myself doing. im creative and the working 12 hour shifts dosnt apeal to me. i want to love what i do, but im scared to make a move. so i dont do anything. if you could stop by this blog post and give me your thoughts i would greatly appreciate it. i hope it inspires me to unfreeze my situation. thank you.

[Edson Carlos]

There is a very tough decision to make in life, work and get "paid", or do what you love and be the "starving artist" Very few people get the golden opportunity to do both. You are what you emit. Show you are scared and others will read it and hinder your movement forward. If you walk in like you "own this m***********" you will stomp on the competition. This is that edge that is needed to do what you love and get paid doing it. I always placed myself as a street smart business man, I walked into my interview in SF and MADE my position. He asked me what I could do for the company and he drew the reporting structure on the whiteboard. He said, where do you fit, cross out names as needed. I walked up and drew a line out from under CEO, and said here. Operations. I don't have a full degree, and I do what I love with my street smarts and close to 2 decades of experience behind me in the tech industry. Moral of the story:

If you choose to do what you love, be aggressive, you are the s*** and everything you touch turns to gold, practice, and dominate.

[Delyssia LaBelle {Madam}]

thank you so much sable! that means so much, it reminds me of when tyler durden in fight club says"ahhh the illusion of saftey" you just cant ever know. thank you for reminding me not to be driven by fear. much love!

[Sable Sin Cyr]

Hey babe, I know exactly how you feel. After I got out of college I turned my back on theater because it wasn't safe, responsible or reliable. Well, it's five years later and I've been safe, responsible and reliable. But that's gotten me nowhere but laid off thanks to our shitty economy. So, please don't kid yourself into thinking that 'safe and responsible' are really any safer or more responsible than following your dreams. Don't let fear guide your decisions. I've learned that we don't deserve our dreams unless we're willing to take the risks to attain them. You can do it if you love it and want it badly enough. Go for it! :)

[Delyssia LaBelle {Madam}]

thanks natalie, i apreciate your enthusiasm. in these hard times can the economy realy supposrt another hairstylist/artist..... how can i just follow my dreams if i think they will lead me down a road of poverty and debt ? i really dont believe i can live on what id make as a pinup hairstylist/artist, or can i? how about some comments from the pros ? how fesable is this dream?