“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.” Chuck Palahniuk
AND....
I want whackos to stop leaving me religious literature as a tip. SERIOUSLY. You don't KNOW me. You don't have any IDEA what I believe or don't believe. I didn't ASK for your opinion on spiritualism or your judgment on me as a human being. I…
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Added by Syd Valentine on November 6, 2009 at 12:36pm —
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Just thinking about what changed my life this year and how it completely opened up a world of opportunity and self discovery for me. Thinking about how certain circumstances came about and...BLAM!!!! It was as if someone said "Here you go!! Here's what you've been waiting for FOREVER. Just a little push in the right direction. Here's some assurance and some motivation and oh, here's a little inspiration for you too! Have a little excitement and a boost of self-esteem while you're at it and a…
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Added by Syd Valentine on August 12, 2009 at 11:08am —
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Just feeling a little nostalgic today. Wish I could sit at the lake and feed some stupid geese or something. Maybe have some hot chocolate even though it's really too warm for that. Ho hum. I think I'll just go get my ass kicked at the gym again. I could probably use a good ass-kicking right now. :P
Added by Syd Valentine on July 29, 2009 at 10:13am —
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So, remember that job I applied for a while ago, writing articles for the website, examiner.com?
WWWWWWWWEEEEEELLLLLLLLLL............I got the job and just had my first article published today!!!!!! YAY!! I am ecstatic!!!!
I know it's not the BEST writing job out there and SOME people might say it's not a REAL job at all because the pay is all based on how many hits my page gets (how many people read my articles etc.).... BUT it IS a start and I'm proud of…
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Added by Syd Valentine on July 28, 2009 at 6:48pm —
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I told myself I wasn't going to write anymore but I started to feel empty inside.
So, I was driving the other day and the song Crash into Me by Dave Matthews came on the radio. For some reason I started balling like a little baby and I thought to myself.....
What a LAME ASS! You have got to get a grip..... but, it is what it is, right?? I don't know if it was the lyrics or the melody..... but MAN......tears were flowing.
Youve got your ball
Youve got your…
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Added by Syd Valentine on July 9, 2009 at 8:17pm —
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Added by Syd Valentine on July 4, 2009 at 12:30pm —
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Today I wish I could start running and just keep going. A little Forrest Gump action. Run to the end of the road, to the end of the block, then to the end of town.....across the county and the state..... What would that be like? AMAZING, I imagine.
Added by Syd Valentine on July 2, 2009 at 1:36pm —
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Getting ready to submit a job application and writing sample to Examiner.Com. Wish me luck!! (Thanks for the tip Wink...)
Added by Syd Valentine on June 27, 2009 at 2:45pm —
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So, you think you can tell heaven from hell,
blue skies from pain?
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here
We're just two lost souls swimming in…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 26, 2009 at 1:30pm —
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After yesterday, my advice to ANY model is: "GET A PHOTO SHOOT WITH JASON ALLEN". No matter what it takes, DO IT. Our shoot together was AMAZING! He is EXCEPTIONALLY easy to pose for, very down to earth and friendly yet professional at the same time so the comfort level is INSANE . It was GREAT fun and having Piper Rubie there to do makeup, assist with lighting and help come up with groovy ideas for different shots was a BIG plus. They make a wonderful team!!
My favorite thing about…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 26, 2009 at 7:23am —
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I am pleased and honored to soon be adding the work of another spectacular photographer to my portfolio. I am shooting with the talented Jason Allen tomorrow morning here in Denver and am EXTREMELY stoked about it!! Thank you for gracing us Coloradan gals with your presence J.A!
Added by Syd Valentine on June 24, 2009 at 1:00pm —
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Everything's alright
When i see you smile - Bad English
You make me smile again
Like a child of three - Manhattan Transfer
Oh, i've never seen a smile before
as beautiful as yours. -Natalie Cole
No, there's nothing that i can't be
If you'll just smile for me - Olivia Newton John
The smile you smile is you
And I see through your laughing eyes -Van Morrison
:D
Added by Syd Valentine on June 20, 2009 at 1:17pm —
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I have found my quiet place to write. I've gone for the last two weeks after leaving work. I feel inspired there... and peaceful. There's something about this spot that moves me. Maybe it's because it's late at night, I am a night owl and am most creative in the dark with just the shallow gleam of a street lamp and a tiny, clip on book-light to aid my sight . Maybe it's because the sounds of a train stimulates my brain. Maybe it's because I am a COMPLETE FREAK OF NATURE.
(Don't…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 19, 2009 at 2:42pm —
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I am envious of my children. Ah, to be young again... when saying the word "poopy" could make you giggle and laugh for hours and the biggest disappointment you faced was having to take a nap.
I talked to my parents today. Afterward, all I really wished was that I could be scooped up in their arms and rocked to sleep, the soothing murmur of a lullaby echoing in my mind. I miss that comfort.... that reasurrance of security and stability. Life wasn't so frightening or confusing or…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 18, 2009 at 4:17pm —
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I found this website called MapMyRun.com. You can chart out and plan your route. It tells you the mileage and there's a personal training log where you can keep track of your goals and times etc. There are running forums, route suggestions in your area and information on running events. I am really starting to enjoy it! Good stuff.
Went to my kickboxing class again, FINALLY, after not getting to go for about a week. It was fantastic. This may seem kind of dorky but I really, REALLY…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 17, 2009 at 2:12pm —
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Last night I had a dream
You came into my room
you took me into your arms
Whispering and kissing me
and telling me to still believe
But then the emptiness
of a burning sea against which we see
our darkest of sadness
Until I felt safe and warm
I fell asleep in your arms
When I awoke I cried again
for you were gone
-Jane Siberry
Added by Syd Valentine on June 14, 2009 at 6:15pm —
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Today I am:
going crazy
a complete 'hater'
frustrated
pissed-the-f***-off
ready to box (someone's face)
whatever
irritable
anxious
agitated
confused
not at all OK
messed up in the head
retarded
ready to crawl into a h***
screaming inside
at my wits end
craving a cig
saying to myself "WTF ?! Really? REALLLYYYY?????
sucking at life
depressed
whiny…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 13, 2009 at 3:00pm —
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Well, Aloha!
I'm teeming with excitement! Ditching the husband and headed to a 'luau' at 6 tonight to celebrate King Kamehameha Day. The BEST part is I get to wear a cheongsam dress my grandma
made back in the '40s. It's GORGEOUS and I've been waiting for an excuse to put it on!!
(FYI.... Making a Hawaiin coconut cake and guava frosting from scratch with the help of three children is not recommended for the faint of…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 11, 2009 at 2:30pm —
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Yesterday, I went on a 7mile bike ride. My son was at a friends house and I have a two-seat-er cart that pulls behind, so I buckled up my girls and off we went. It was a wonderful day for it; overcast with a nice breeze so not too hot. We rode around a couple of lakes and checked out the water fowl. I had just kicked ass up a descent size hill and was enjoying a nice coast down when I came to a four way stop. I guess I forgot how much momentum those carts have coming behind you because when I…
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Added by Syd Valentine on June 10, 2009 at 3:33pm —
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Oh, how I wish I could share with you.... 5.7miles in 50min
Added by Syd Valentine on June 6, 2009 at 4:00pm —
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