A BIG kiss, wink, and side hip bump to all on PL - I have been amazed at how active and friendly everyone here is! I've enjoyed being on so much that I've hardly gotten off since I joined and have been putting off working on one of my websites to play here! (but it's a much needed break)
So, I'm an exotic birdie in a cage. I stay home everyday and work since May 2006 when the company I was working for closed their doors and I had the opportunity to not re-enter the slave work force (woo-hoo!) I set out to build my own interior re-design business but ended up getting inspired to do MUCH, MUCH more than I had originally envisioned. This has been a huge gift, to be so inspired, but also a huge chore to constantly be flipping back and forth from project to project, and ultimately without getting paid for it. For over a year I've been trying to get myself and my husband to Austin and figure out how to juggle my pursuits of design, dance (cabaret), event planning, music (singing/songwriting), pin-up modeling, and activism. With change being the only thing I can seem to actually expect, I'm learning to just go with the flow and trust I'll get where I need and want to be.
I'm definitely a perfectionist, which has served me well in some ways, and hindered me in others. When it comes to pin-up modeling it's been a hinderance because I've felt that I must be physically "perfect" before I could really get started. Since the likely hood of that happening without bookoos of $$$ are extremely slim, I'm coming to accept that if I let my imperfections hold me back, I may never get started - and well, that is simply not an option. I've become very motivated navigating the pages of PL and in the past two days I've put together a plan to get this ball rolling. It's not going to happen overnight, but I feel that I'm now able to see the potential of my current situation, rather than what's lacking. Truthfully I feel this theme of seeing what can be done now happening throughout all of my work. I guess I'm ready for the next step. I cringe at the thought of being vulnerable and being rejected by the world I so want to embrace, but I also need to fly and have the experiences that I've mostly been dreaming of so action is a must.
I'm thrilled to get to know other people in the pin-up culture and make some real friggin' friends, cause out here in hicksville, the people just aren't my flavor. Things may be looking grim on a societal/economical level, but it's times like these that really light a fire under my ass and show me that it's up to us to change the situation - WE HAVE THE POWER!